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23 June 2006 @ 01:14 am
just something to think about...  
I met a very old friend for dinner this evening.  I got to the restaurantearly ('cause you can never tell with traffic around here, argh! but that's another story).   Anyway, I am just waiting alone, and I cannot help but feel incredibly awkward.  I wonder, is it simply my subconscious putting that wriggling little feeling in my mind, or has society conditioned me to feel that way...or both?  I don't know.  Maybe this question doesn't even makes sense (I had two drinks, a mojito, asiswellknown it made me think of you, and a seabreeze, best one I have ever had) and then I came home and took two tramadol for my back, so I have kinda of a nice little buzz, so pardon me if I don't make any sense, like usual.  I am just trying to be deep, since I am usually about as deep as a puddle.  I fear it's not working.  Anyway, not something I expect to be answered, just thought about.

P.S.  I had been watching my Sex & the City DVDs earlier, so I was already thinking about this topic.  And just when I starting to feel my fabulous, Carrie-like self.
Current Location: foot of the bed
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Listening/Watching: watching Conan O'Brien
The Bitch is Back: americandesi chrisasiswellknown on June 23rd, 2006 10:18 am (UTC)
hey, i had two mojitos tonight! i went out with bryn -- we went to babeland on capital hill because she'd never been to a sex store...and i HAD to take her. she had to get a little liquored up first or else she wouldn't have gone, haha.

and re: your question, i think it might be a little bit of both. just the sitting waiting by yourself bit? i feel kind of odd doing that too, maybe because everyone else at the restaurant is with someone else, or maybe because i just don't like being alone in public (which is weird, because most of the time i prefer being alone to being with people). my mom goes to movies alone all the time and i just don't see how she does it. it must take incredible self-confidence to do something like that. i can hardly go to the video store alone, because to me it kinda makes me seem like, god, i'm going to the video store by myself, i'm going to sit at home and watch a movie with my cat and probably play sims and drink the rest of my wine BY MYSELF...

so in other words, i completely know where you're coming from.

hey, do you want to do something tomorrow? i don't work at all (WOOHOO) and i don't open on saturday (DOUBLE WOOHOO!). let me know. :)
Allee: frenchkissquestionlady_lyca on June 23rd, 2006 04:10 pm (UTC)
I used to go to movies by myself. I felt awkward then too, but it is dark in there, so I didn't care as much. I haven't done it in a while, but I think I should try it again.

Oooh, me and my friend Mary want to go there...she was already shopping the online store. If they have it in stock, there is a vibe that is a pink rubber ducky...I think it sounds very promising.

Is it ok if I let you know once I get off work? I guess I slept too soundly all week because last night I could not sleep at all. I felt really tired (a drug and booze cocktail will do that to you), but I couldn't get comfortable, and once I closed my eyes my mind would not shut off! If I get my second wind, we should so do something!

P.S. God, I love that icon! Gets me every time I see it!
The Bitch is Back: shifty eyes dog propopdanasiswellknown on June 23rd, 2006 04:27 pm (UTC)
yeah, totally... i'm currently incredibly exhausted, as i was rudely awakened (awoken? i have no idea) at 7:20, after going to sleep (finally) at 4am, by my father, who had come by to drop off my new elliptical machine... and then i was like, i'm awake, i might as well attempt to cross some things off my to-do list. which is very long.

i also have to head up to lynnwood sometime today to check on my friend's cats, so it might be another public transportation nightmare. hopefully it won't be, but i'm banking on it being hideous again. now that i know where to get off the bus, though, i won't have to walk 30 blocks... hopefully...and hopefully my buses won't be heinously late, too. bah. burn, public transportation, BURN!