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17 August 2006 @ 10:32 am
It's a shame we have to die, my dear  
Warning; opening this LJ cut leads to lots of griping about parental units! And swears, let's not forget the swears.



Newsflash, this just in: Allison hates her parents! Yes, we all already knew that, but I am at work and have no one else to vent to.

I realize that I am 21, and my parents have every right to be annoyed with me still living in their house. But hello, back problems = surgery = lots of $$$ spent on my part. So, money has been somewhat of a sticky situation for me. But I am so hacked off, I am seriously considering living in my car just to get the hell out of my house.

Last night, dad comes barging in my room, says about 20 minutes before saradiation, Amanda, Nick, and possibly Tighe are supposed to arrive, that I can't have anyone over for an indefinite amount of time. Thanks for the warning jack-hole! About two hours later he apologizes for losing his cool, and proceeds to act like nothing has happened. And, since I have always gotten along fairly well with him, I let it go. I actually feel bad for having a bitch-face reaction.

But then, at work today (and it really pisses me off that he talks about personal shit at work, "Oh, we're the only two people here, so it's ok"...NO IT'S NOT! 'Cause you know I am gonna get peeved, and that I hold grudges and will be a bitch-face to you the rest of the day, and that is not professional) He gets mad that I am not coming straight home, that I am going out for a late lunch with Amanda. Well excuse me! It's my money, she is one of my best friends, and she is leaving for Vermont in a couple of weeks. I know you and mom don't have any friends, so you may not know what it's like...but when she is gone, I will have no one nearby. asiswellknown has school and band, Tighe has his 30 year old boyfriend, Laurie is...well Laurie...and everyone else will be away at school. So, who am I gonna hang out with? You? HA!

But what really pisses my off is how my mom is just sitting at the computer in the office and staying silent; then I come to find out this morning that she is the one to tell my dad to act like an asshat! Now I am pissed at her for being a total chicken shit, and even more mad at my dad for acting like her fucking toady! They hate each other, I really think they only got married because of me...I wish they would just get a divorce. But oh right, they have no friends so they would be all alone.

Yes, I do realize I sound like an ungrateful brat, and I am an ungrateful brat. But when they keep reminding you of all the nice things they do for you and hold them over your head all the damn time, it is hard to feel grateful. I don't ask them to do any of these nice things; in fact I don't want them to do anything, but then they guilt trip me for not accepting them.

Whenever I talk about moving out, my mom says really discouraging things. "Oh you will never do it." But then ten minutes later, "Have you gotten any new apartment guides?", all hopeful like! I know menopause must be a bitch, but PUH-LEASE! Or when they go on vacation for a week, "Did you miss us?" I honestly answer "No." and she gets very pouty. Do you want me to leave or not?!?!? FUCK! Or if I tell her about a cool listing, she has something negative to say. "Oh you can't live there. You'd have a long commute." Well, the only places close to work are hella expensive, and you are just a mean and clueless cunt-rag!

I am even thinking about leaving this job. It is nice and cushy and it would be a major pay cut, but I would rather be a barista again then have to deal with this shit every day. I am even thinking about just moving to a completely different state. I have always wanted to live in Boston and/or Minneapolis; this would be the perfect time to do it. I think my parents and I shouldn't talk or see each other for a couple of months. I really think it would be good for our relationship.

Does anyone just want to pack up and move far away with me? We don't even have to tell anyone where we are going! It has always been a fantasy of mine to get a couple of things together, get in the car and just drive away. No looking back. Start over. Don't even acknowledge you had another life. I have even thought about what my new name would be.


If you actually read all that, I am sorry. It probably didn't make any sense...but I just needed to type without breaking; just had to get it all out.

*EDIT*
I just want to say; if you see a post by me, with the "Wilson, asshat" icon...it is a pretty safe bet that I am pissed off!

And that late lunch with Amanda, there will be massive amounts of peach belinis consumed.
 
 
Current Location: the seventh layer of hell
Current Mood: irateintrospective
Listening/Watching: "I Will Follow You Into the Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie
 
 
 
Jackiejackie on August 17th, 2006 06:10 pm (UTC)
aww...i'm sorry hon.

when i moved home from school, i lived with my parents for 2 years. i moved out about 3 months after my 21st due to being completely(!!) fed up with the bullshit. i wasn't allowed to have any alcohol in the house (okay, fine, whatever), was lectured whenever i went out with my friends (sooooo rarely happens, it's ridiculous) and wasn't allowed to have my boyfriend in the house without someone else there. bastards.

now i live with my boyfriend and can do whatever i want! huzzah for being a grown-up! :D

we have an extra bedroom if you need somewhere to stay. :)
Allee: emo!darcylady_lyca on August 17th, 2006 06:15 pm (UTC)
Aaw, thanks, sweetie! It just helps knowing your friends (on LJ or anywhere) are there for you. :) And that as much as it might surprise me, I am not the first person to go through this.

When my parents went on vacation, my dad actually said, "No boys". I shit you not, that is a direct quote. Yeah, 'cause I am 14 :P

*hugs the Jackie*
The Bitch is Back: cake or deathasiswellknown on August 17th, 2006 06:50 pm (UTC)
Ugh. Parents REALLY suck. Mine continue to do the "you need to save your money" and "you need to be more responsible" rants. Mine asked if I missed them when I house-sat for them. The parents ALWAYS assume that no matter what I'm doing, I'll drop it to do shit for/with them, and lately that's NOT happening.

And the "Oh you can't live there. You'd have a long commute" busines...it's your life. If you have a long commute, so what? Your mom is being a snatchface, and your dad a cuntscab.

You're welcome down here any time you want. :) *hugs*
Allee: emo!darcylady_lyca on August 17th, 2006 07:08 pm (UTC)
I may just have to take you up on that offer. I used to escape to Laurie's house...but I actually like you, so it would be much more fun :P

Gawd, my dad came back to work, asked how I was. I said "Fine"; but in a way that it was obvious I'm still pissed. He told me it doesn't matter how I feel and to basically stop being a snatchface. OK, I will now sit here and stew and let it kill me slowly from the inside out.

Oh, and my phone's predicitve text now recognizes snatch-face :D
The Bitch is Back: speak-n-spellasiswellknown on August 17th, 2006 07:26 pm (UTC)
That is pretty great that your phone now recognises snatchface... :)

Yeah, you're welcome here whenever. 90% of the time, I'm home, haha. Even during school. I go to class, I come home, I skip class and stay home... :) I think your dad needs a swift kick to the nuts, and I'm more than willing to deliver.
Allee: pyrobackofflady_lyca on August 17th, 2006 07:33 pm (UTC)
Why are our fathers such dickweeds?!?! You can kick mine in the nuts; while I...take care of yours.
The Bitch is Back: miniature businessasiswellknown on August 17th, 2006 08:19 pm (UTC)
Oh, it will be done. And it will be good.
Chrissyweird_x_sister on August 18th, 2006 08:26 am (UTC)
This is a bit late. But yeah...

"Does anyone just want to pack up and move far away with me? We don't even have to tell anyone where we are going! It has always been a fantasy of mine to get a couple of things together, get in the car and just drive away. No looking back. Start over. Don't even acknowledge you had another life. I have even thought about what my new name would be." - Me too. I even planned where I was going. I always planned to go alone though, who the hell would be stupid enough to come with me? Lol!

I know I'm younger than you. But hey, I understand the whole parent trouble. [Gah] I won't go into to it. But I do understand.